Words and Actions That Caused You Pain

I've been replaying what happened, and I can't stop thinking about how much I hurt you. I said things and did things that were careless and cruel, and there's no excuse for that. You didn't deserve it—you never deserved it—and I know that an apology can't erase the pain I caused or give back what this took from you.

But I need you to know that I genuinely see what I did now, and I hate that I put you through that. I'm not asking you to forget or to move past this easily. What I'm asking is that you believe me when I say I'm going to be different—not because I'm sorry I got caught, but because you matter too much to me to ever treat you that way again.

I don't know if you can forgive me yet, and I understand if you can't right now. But I'm here, and I'm ready to do whatever it takes to make this right.