Pushing You Away When You Only Wanted to Help

Tala, I need you to know how sorry I am for making you feel distant from me, for building walls when you were only trying to reach me. I see now that what I thought was protecting you was actually just pushing you away—and that hurt you in a way I didn't want to admit.

You care about me so deeply, and instead of letting you in, I convinced myself that keeping my struggles hidden was the noble thing to do. But that's not fair to you. You deserve to be let in. You deserve to know that I trust you with the hard parts, not just the beautiful ones. That's what real love looks like.

I'm sorry for making you feel like you weren't enough to share this with. You are everything to me, and you always will be. I want to do better—to let you love me the way you need to, the way I need you to. Thank you for not giving up on me, even when I was running.