For Being Careless When I Should Have Been Present

I know I messed up today, and I hate that I did. You asked me to call, and I said yes—but then I was half-there on Instagram instead of actually being with you the way I promised. That wasn't fair to you, especially when you were making time for me.

Then I compared you to someone I know you can't stand, and the second it left my mouth I felt how stupid and hurtful that was. You're nothing like them, and you didn't deserve to be measured against someone you dislike. And calling you by someone else's name? That was the worst. I saw your face and I knew how bad it was.

I'm genuinely sorry. I want to do better—to actually show up when I'm with you, to think before I speak, to remember who you are to me. Please let me talk to you. I hate that you're angry, and I understand why. I just need the chance to make this right.